Our Big News . . .

Baby is PERFECT! And . . . IT'S A BOY!!!!!!!!!!!



He was sooooo cute today - he was asleep but had the hiccups and was bouncing all over the place. The tech took one look and said "Look at your perfect baby, I have another dr. who has to see this!" She went and got a 50 y.o. (about) male dr. who is training to do NT scans and he walked in and said "Awwwwwww, wook at the pefect wittle baby!" At that point, I knew the scan was going well! :):) Anyway, his measurements are perfect and my risk is 1 in 2888 for Downs and 1 in 5500 for Tri 13/18, so no CVS or amnio for me. She also said his brain, skull, kidneys, and heart look absolutely perfect, as does the placenta, which is anterior, and the amniotic fluid. HB was a perfect 160. I asked if we could get the money shot and she totally did - she got a shot looking down his belly with his little feet and legs in the air and she cracked up and said to me "what do you think it is?" I took one look at the screen and said - "I think that's a BOY!" We checked from the other direction and there was no downward pointing stub, so it's pretty sure it's a boy! I am so excited and DH is over the moon!!! I don't have a good scan of the money shot, but I will post it when I get home - I'm at work so could only scan one pic before getting bounced off the scanner.

Allllllllllllll-day sickness

I have NO IDEA why it's called morning sickness. I wake up, I feel fine. I take a shower, I feel fine. I eat breakfast, I feel fine. 20 minutes later, I feel like I'm on a 15ft boat on 20ft seas. Alllllllll day. Riding in the car is hell, which is not good as I have a 40 minute commute to my office. Walking helps, sometimes. When it doesn't, it's worse. Sea-Bands do help some. Ginger helps. Eating (weirdly) helps. But nothing makes it go away. Sigh. Oh, and I am so tired I can barely function. But I can't sleep when I want to throw up. It's not fun - like a three-month hangover without all the booze. BUT - baby looks good so far. We have another ultrasound on Thursday but here is a picture from last week:



Our little blueberry was measuring 2 days ahead and had a lovely heartbeat of 136bpm. So, my due date is Nov. 22.

E is thrilled, his parents are thrilled, and when I don't want to puke or sleep, I'm thrilled. More updates soon!

Symptoms

Someone asked what symptoms I've had so far - a better question is probably what symptoms I haven't had. So here is a list:

- Much larger breasts - I've gone up both a cup and a strap size. I will probably go up at least one more.
- Tired, tired, tired - I went to bed at 8:30 last night
- Morning Sickness - no pukies yet but they are coming - I feel pretty close a lot of the time now
- Blue Veins everywhere - legs, chest stomach, back, ugh!
- Headaches - these are better now but the first week was hell
- Food aversions and cravings - right now I want all the sweet potatoes I can eat, Chinese hot and sour soup, and rose ice cream from Ici, this amazing little place in Berkeley. I cannot stand the idea of anything green that's cooked (salad is fine), chicken soup, noodles, and anything seafood.
- Cramps - a few of the scary kind, more of the normal pinching, pulling, tight feeling
-Spotting - yep, the scary one, but it's been light and it goes away, so so far so good.
-Hot flashes - especially at night, making it hard to sleep. Baby powder on the sheets save me. Have I mentioned that it's been in the 40s and 50s at night and we don't have the heat on?
- Bitchiness - ooooofffff!!! And can you say moody???? An ASPCA commercial was good for 40 minutes of crying the other night. E is thanking our friend Dave for the phrase "I was only kidding."

Other than that, well, pretty much it's all good. Now baby just has to hang on for 34 more weeks!

Big News

Sorry I've been so quiet but we have big news - we found out on March 14 that the surgery and acupuncture have in fact worked and we are expecting our first on Nov. 24th! It has been a bit of a roller-coaster so far. My betas are as follows:

11 dpo (days past ovulation) -14 (a little low but well within average)
13 dpo -41
14 dpo - 57 (a little slow to go up but ok)
16 dpo - 123 (great #)
21 dpo - 2731!!!

That 21 dpo number is well within the range for multiples - we could be having natural twins, although I would be shocked if we were!

I've had some mild spotting, and my initial hormone levels were a bit low, but these #s show that at least for now, all is very well. I think the spotting was from overdoing it, so I just have to take it easy for the next few weeks.

Our first u/s will be in two weeks and hopefully we will see the heartbeat. We will definitly know then whether it is one or two. I cannot wait for that exam, because once we get past that and all is well, our chances of a miscarriage drop dramatically. I must say though, these numbers are way, way, way above what they were last time, so I am cautiously optimistic this time.

This is just embarassing

So some friends were discussing our TTC and AF related inventories in our various houses. This is mine at the moment:

Oh, my list is just sad:

AF:

-Natura-Care (non-chlorine bleach, environmentally friendly) panti-liners
-Natura-Care tampons 1.5 boxes
-Natura-Care slim maxis with wings

TTC Paraphanalia:

-Three thermometers (yes, three, one I trust, one for backup, and one that is total crap)
-5 kinds of chinese herb pills for various points of the cycle
-A sort of sage-stick thing that you burn and then hold above your ovaries to warm them - its a TCM thing - love it so my acupunture goddess gave one to me for use at home
-B-6 Supplements
-Trader Joe's and Whole Foods pre-natals - I switch during my cycle - TJs is better before O, WF after O for my stomach
-2 tubes pre-seed and several paks of the pre-seed stuff that is for external use
-1 fertility microscope that doesn't work for me

Peeing Implements:

5 left-over Answer 20pk OPKs
4 CBE Digi OPKs
7 CBE non-digi OPKs, which I found in a box the other day and had forgotten about
4 FRER Gold digi HPTs
3 FRER regular HPTs
3 Answer HPTs
Several paper cups
One plastic cup

I do not even want to think about the investment this represents. Moreover, this doesn't even begin to represent all the books, magazines and newsletters I have lying around.

Catching Up

Wow. It's been awhile - sorry! The surgery went well and I am recovering fairly well. Now, of course, I've wrenched my knee and can't walk, but hey, I get to sit on the computer all day, and my cat is thrilled - he is snuggled next to me sleeping at the moment.

This cycle is being a bit strange, but I guess that is to be expected. I have had more EWCM than ever (you either know what that means or don't want to), but am not showing other signs of ovulating yet. And when E and I babydance, I'm spotting a bit. I figure that is still from the surgery, as I know it is supposed to take six weeks before you are really healed up. So now just waiting to see if we catch the egg this cycle, and if not, hoping it is a nice short one so I can be onto my clomid/IUI cycle. I have the clomid in the medicine cabinet. I can't wait!

In other news, I am still getting magazines like Babytalk and things like Enfamil in the mail from when I was pregnant last year. I don't know HOW they managed to get our new address. Really, they shouldn't ship this stuff out - especially given the rates of miscarriage. I wonder if they know how upsetting it is to get this - a nice weekly reminder that I don't have a baby. If I ever have to use formula, I promise it will not be enfamil now.

OUCH!

Well, I did it - I made it through a surgery without a complete freak out. I won't say it wasn't that bad - the recovery room time was awful and I'm still very sore, but the surgery itself, in the words of my doctor, was "excellent."

The surgery was scheduled for 2pm on Monday. I had to stop all solid food on Saturday night. I had some yogurt on Sunday morning (as per the ok of the pre-op nurse) and then had to drink liquids and broths for the rest of the day. By that night I was starving. Monday morning, I slept late and then got my bag ready to go to the hospital in case I had to stay over. I took the train into the city and E met me at the station and drove me to the hosptial. We went up to the admitting room and waited about 20 minutes until they took me back. They had me in this waiting area with about 15 other beds with curtains all around. They had me change into my gown and put in the IV, which stung like CRAZY!!! I started feeling a little queasy so they gave me a warming pad over my stomach and that helped. E was allowed to be in with me at that point. He wanted to take a nap. I did too, frankly, but was too nervous.

About 1:30, they came and got me and wheeled me into the anesthesia prep area. Here I met the anesthesiologist, the nurses, and the resident who was assisting my surgeon. They finally gave me something to help the nerves and it made me a little dizzy but I was ok. Then it was into the operating room. I actually remember all of this, which is apparently unusual. In the operating room, they made me move onto the table and then we had to wait because my surgeon was late getting there. So we waited about 10 minutes, then they did the "time out" where everyone confirmed what surgery we were doing, and then the anestheisologist told me I would start getting sleepy. The next thing I knew, someone was waking me up from a really good dream and saying something about my tubes being clear. I stayed in the anesthesia recovery room for about 40 minutes, lying in the bed, and I was fine. They gave me morphine and then took me into regular recovery, where it all went downhill.

In that recovery, I had to sit in a chair. Moving to that chair made me dizzy and gave me horrible nausea. So they gave me something for the nausea and it turns out - I'm allergic to it! I noticed my hands were swelling and then I leaned forward and E called out to the nurses "Should she have these welts on her back?" Yep, came out in a rash all over - little red welts all on my back, arms, and chest. So benedryl was given and then I was SLEEPY! Oh, and of course, part of the allergy was that the anti-nausea stuff made me throw up. It took ages before I could stand up without wanting to barf or pass out. So I got to stay in recovery an extra hour or so. I finally decided I could go home, but was still sick. However, by the time I was home, I was just happy to be here and started finally feeling better. I woke up an hour after I went to bed (maybe 30 minutes after I got home) and had a bit more of the rash, but just one more benedryl took care of it and no problems since.

Happily, by yesterday, I was feeling much better in the nausea department. I'm sore, defintily, especially around my belly button, and my cats are ticked at me that they can't snuggle on mommy like normal (their favorite place is to lie on my tummy and purrrrrr). I am a little swollen in my belly, but haven't really had much in referred gas pain, which I understand is pure luck.

As for the outcome of the surgery - the cyst was an endometrinoma, but I had NO other signs of endometriosis at all, so the diagnosis is now endo free!!! Also, my tubes are perfect apparently, which is great news. Finally, the best news is that the cyst removed easily and my entire ovary is preserved. So now I am just waiting to be able to start IUI, hopefully in the next cycle, but maybe one more, depending on word from my RE. If we don't start IUI, we will try on our own, of course. So just keeping my fingers crossed that we see a BFP soon!